I usually put people before I put myself.
I usually focus on people and make sure they are happy and often forget about myself and my self worth.
I often care about people way more than people care about me or people who don’t even care about me in the first place.
This usually makes me feel shitty and like I have no one.
“I do this! Time after time after time! I do all this shit for other people! And then I wake up and I’m empty! I have nothing!”. A quote from one of my favorite movies (Silver Linings Playbook).
When I heard this quote I knew exactly how the Supporter character (played by Jennifer Lawrence) felt.
There is only one person who can be there for you 24/7; and that’s yourself.
In middle school when I barely had any friends I always had candy and gum. I would give it to people. I thought this would get me friends. In reality, it was just people taking advantage of me and some would tell me to buy them candy from the store and I did. Even though, I really didn’t want to.
I was really vulnerable. I was seen as a target.
Freshmen year one of my friends who I was really close to at the time told me I was not afraid to be nice.
But, often people saw that as me flirting with them or being fake.
Now that i’m older I am learning that I need to do things for myself.
It’s hard but it has to be done. Self worth is one of the most important things to me.
You have to take care of yourself before you care for others.
I use to not give a shit about myself, but, I realized that was stupid.
Like the rapper drake says “know your worth.”
To this day I am starting to do things that make me happy; like doing more art, going on runs/walks, listening to music, dancing and etc.
I’m starting to love myself and see the true beauty I have.
Self worth is one of the important things not only to me but also, in life.
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Self worthis important and everyone has the right to be here. Helping others makes the world a better place but you have to know where the line between helping others and hindering yourself lies. It is something we learn through life experiences. It is noble and good for all to “…help others but not at the expense of yourself and help yourself but not at the expense of others.” Be careful not to turn your focus too far inward. People, such as yourself, who have suffered wounds to their self esteem over the years, sometimes fall into negativity and depression. Each new day is a fresh start. Stay strong and let those past life experiences be the character strengths that sustain you in the challenges of life!
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Thank you so much for your words of wisdom. I highly appreciate it.
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